Random words

There was a moment when she realized that she wrote more words in English than in Portuguese. And that she had stopped thinking in Portuguese. Her mind had switched off and now the only words that came out were in a different language than the one she learned while growing up.
That must have been happening for a long time now. No other thing could explain the lack of communication between her and the rest of the world. At least to her own world. She couldn’t communicate to the person she was or thought she was.
So she started using the international language… maybe this way she could understand herself and get what she was reading…

Human relationships suck!!! Or the absence of them sucks! Or the need to have one is the thing that truly sucks… Isn’t there a normal decent guy around to make me believe again? That love can exist? And I don’t mean the butterfly’s guy! Because he, as all the good guys I know, is already taken! And no, I’m not fond of the idea of sharing…

Today I wanted to go out… In my head I planned on going to see the new Starbucks and invite the friend who told me about it… But for some reason I had to do all this house tasks, because they couldn’t wait for the week or for the night. Just because. So I stayed and didn’t even watch Prison Break… 

I’m delaying a thing for as much as I can. And everyday I know that I’m getting worst, and that one of these days I just won’t be able to get up. But I rather delay it and don’t look, as if the problem would just go away…

My father yesterday told me I couldn’t be getting to my 27th birthday… thanks Dad, I know about that… Just can’t turn back time or make it stop, although I actually try. I don’t want to get to that age with so little accomplished. What the hell have I been doing these last years? I know I usually leave things to do on the last minute… but I don’t think I can do it with real life… Can I?