Monday mood

Disclaimer: this post is written with the single purpose of venting.

Today is Monday. That alone should do it. But lately I've tried to have a more positive attitude and be thankful for each day and for the opportunity of working and getting paid for it. So that means that Monday stopped being a curse word and became just a week day like any other.
But today I'm having a hard time keeping positive.
Doesn't help that I'm alone at the office and it's freezing. Turned the heat up and all, but can't feel many changes.
We got a revision for the ongoing project, so the entire process of downloading plans, uploading and emailing them out took forever.
Funny enough, the project bidding also got a revision, so I had to do the same thing. With the bonus that who was on the fence about bidding (this Wednesday) will see that and just ignore the project. I would...
Add miscellaneous requests that been sent my way.
And finally add my niece that can't grasp the simple concepts of economics and wants to spend money she doesn't have on something she doesn't need. And I can't make her understand that she has to learn the value of money and to prioritize purchases... 
Maybe add some messed up hormones or something.

Bitchyyyyyyy

Valentine's Day

After a quick search on Google I ended up on the Smithsonian page explaining the origins of Valentine's. 

They go in extensive length, but I just skimmed over it and this is what i take of it: 

"Valentine's Day, in fact, originated as a liturgical feast to celebrate the decapitation of a third-century Christian martyr, or perhaps two."

Read more: https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/gory-origins-valentines-day-180968156/#V36U0AshD7Sg48Fl.99

This really lines up with my spirit today actually.... But for some reason I actually like my hubbie and am not going to chop his head off... Bummer... I will just stay at work doing not much and trying to get my mood back to shape! 

Might go crazy and leave early to go get my eyebrows done and buy some chocolates as a gift. I will even buy the ones that have mint on them so there is no risk of me eating them. Wanted to go watch the Green Book movie, but the theater i want to go to only screens it at 4:30 pm today and that is kind of late... 

That being said... Happy Valentine's to whomever is reading this, and hope your head keeps firmly attached to your body! 

Lack of...

... things to say... motivation to do stuff...

Not sure what to blame for this, but the truth is I feel like doing nothing. All i want to do is sit on the couch and hibernate. Watch some movie for the 100th time and just wait for the grumpy me to die of boredom.

Work kind of got in the way of that and now here I sit, trying hard to compel myself to actually work on what i have to do. It is not much and I really don't need to do it now, but once it's done I don't have to worry about it.

I could blame the cold winter, the snow, politics, ..., the list goes on. But to be honest, the only one to blame is myself and maybe some weird hormonal fluctuation. That being said, all I can do is to deal with it and carry on doing stuff with 0 motivation.

Darn, I miss some nice ME time...

Cold Cold Cold

During the worst of the Polar Vortex that made temperatures drop to minus A LOT in the Midwest I got to stay home from work. There was not enough to do for it to be worth my time and effort to come in. Yesterday temperatures rose to positive numbers and today I had to come in to actually do some work. Rise of temperatures yesterday + freeze today = first fall of the year in the ice ring that our parking lot is.... One broken nail, sore wrist and a minor cut on a finger sums up the damage that i can access at this point.

The joys or winter in Minnesota for a clumsy person...

Friendship

This morning the topic was on my mind, so decided to share some thoughts here.

One of my friends is coming to spend over this weekend. And it got me thinking how we became friends. We met in college. Same thing happened to most of my friends. I have less than a handful of friends from times prior or after college. And that is fine, I don't have many friends, but the ones I have are good ones. Quality over quantity.
But back to the topic, most of these friends I remember meeting. Or I associate my first friendly memory of them with a specific class or event.
The friend that is coming to visit I met during our first year, first semester, but only got friendly the next one.
However, I can't place a time or event that brought me together to another friend. Mutual acquaintances? Shared classes or group work? Can't remember. She is so important to me that i think she came with the college acceptance package. They knew I needed her to enrich my life and to be a part of it.
She is not a very touchy-feel kind of person, so I can't really tell her this without making her uncomfortable, so I will write it here, so I will always remember the day I figured she has been in my life forever, and that she was already my friend before our paths crossed. We were meant to be friends and destiny just had to make that happen.

I can live for many many years. Pretty sure I will never work on the field I studied. Pretty sure I really don't care. But i am certain that i made the right choice, because it allowed me to meet the people I met and finally find my people there.

Throw back Thursday

Radio station at the office is only playing music from the 70/80's. And it's GREAT! Singing along with most of them, remembering some that i used to love and just haven't heard in a while.
Odd how those were the songs that stuck to me. The ones I listened to while growing up.

Richard Marx with Right Here Waiting playing at the moment. Off to do some sing along since I am briefly alone at the office.

10y challenge

Seems like the thing to do is to post pictures of one self now and 10y ago. I am not going to do that. Partly because I don't have any pictures available of me 10y ago, partly because I don't want to.
But i can make a mental exercise and think of where I was and what was happening to me in 2009.
Memory isn't the best, so after a quick trip to FB and this blog's history, these are the most remarkable things to consider:

• Ended a relationship with someone that i really didn't care for;
• Had a crush on a rebound guy:
• Met my husband and fell in love with him;
• My niece turned 6. She was the most adorable little girl in the world and I loved her to pieces. 
• Was very addicted to an online game called Ikariam;
• Told my parents I met someone that might be the one and where he was from.
• Had another hip surgery;
• Stayed home to recover and couldn't go to work. Sounds like a good thing, but i remember being bored out of my mind;
• My friends where the same as they are today. Bonus points for choosing them well! 

And this was it in a nutshell. It all seems like it happened yesterday, not ten years ago. 

Almost a past lifetime! However, many of those things remain true. My love for my niece, hubbie and friends. My need to have medical attention to my hip (even if i have been neglecting it or checks ups for the past 7y). My fear of hurting and/or disappointing my parents. And my constant boredom at whatever work I'm doing and simultaneous need to be doing it to keep mental wellness. And lastly my tendency to have some sort of online game to keep me distracted (currently it is Marvel Future Fight). 

Guess years may go by as they please, but i will be me and things won't change that much if i am true to myself. 

Now back to waiting for bids to come in!