Friday, January 27, 2017

This day in history (January 2017)

According to the History Chanel website, this days marks the 72nd anniversary of the Soviets liberating Auschwitz. 


"On this day, Soviet troops enter Auschwitz, Poland, freeing the survivors of the network of concentration camps—and finally revealing to the world the depth of the horrors perpetrated there.
Auschwitz was really a group of camps, designated I, II, and III. There were also 40 smaller “satellite” camps. It was at Auschwitz II, at Birkenau, established in October 1941, that the SS created a complex, monstrously orchestrated killing ground: 300 prison barracks; four “bathhouses” in which prisoners were gassed; corpse cellars; and cremating ovens. Thousands of prisoners were also used for medical experiments overseen and performed by the camp doctor, Josef Mengele, the “Angel of Death.”The Red Army had been advancing deeper into Poland since mid-January. Having liberated Warsaw and Krakow, Soviet troops headed for Auschwitz. In anticipation of the Soviet arrival, the German Gestapo began a murder spree in the camps, shooting sick prisoners and blowing up crematoria in a desperate attempt to destroy the evidence of their crimes. When the Red Army finally broke through, Soviet soldiers encountered 648 corpses and more than 7,000 starving camp survivors. There were also six storehouses filled with literally hundreds of thousands of women’s dresses, men’s suits, and shoes that the Germans did not have time to burn."
From the website: This is just a small account of the horrors that some groups of people had to endure during WWII. Only 70y ago this was happening. There was the kind of bigotry and narrow minds that roamed around and could run the world. Or try to.The US had such an important role in ending these despicable behaviors... Standing for the free world and for the rights of all people. At least that is how I have always seen or imagined the US. 
Going back a bit more in history, during the anti-Semitic campaign that the Nazis embarked on, there was something now labeled "Nazi propaganda". That propaganda included newspapers dedicated to exploit the "evils" of Jews and they devious behaviors. One of them was called "Der Stuermer". In one of the front articles of this publication, titled “Who is the Enemy?”, Jews are blamed for destroying social order and claims that Jews want war, while the rest of the world wants peace.
And today, while reading an Executive Order released on the 25th from the Office of the Press Secretary on "Enhancing Public Safety in the Interior of the United States":
"(...) To better inform the public regarding the public safety threats associated with sanctuary jurisdictions, the Secretary shall utilize the Declined Detainer Outcome Report or its equivalent and, on a weekly basis, make public a comprehensive list of criminal actions committed by aliens and any jurisdiction that ignored or otherwise failed to honor any detainers with respect to such aliens.(...)" 
I won't even go on to mention that these sanctuary jurisdictions are now to be deprived of Federal grants, so that alone will be a cause for an increase in crime rate. 
This is a modern witch hunt. Any and all data collected in those cities will be changed and edited in order to make it look like all illegal aliens are criminals. They won't publish how much they are contributing to the communities. How much they are saving employers and how hard workers they are. They won't list crime rates for US citizens. They will be "alternative facts". Facts that any person can disprove and counter in 5 minutes, but they will be accepted as true for the government because it fits their agenda. 
Today I feel the US went back 80y in time... 

Thursday, January 26, 2017

White House Website

Can't help but follow the political developments as if it was a soap opera. Since yesterday I couldn't bring myself to watch the 1st presidential interview, I decided go to the White House webpage and try to educate myself a bit about this new presidency. 

Thought that clicking on the Statements and Releases from the Press Office would be a good start. And there I saw listed: 


Wow, that is not so bad. Hopefully the federal aid will make it easier for these communities to recover from the fury of Mother Nature. Just because the POTUS is messing up the environment doesn't mean he doesn't try to mitigate effects... 

But then I ran into this:  

What now? There is a "pat in the back" page? This presidency needs confirmation so bad that they roam news and social media looking for a "job well done" publications that they can copy and display? 
First listing read: 



A tweet! They have the transcription of a tweet right there! I kept making fun that the country was going to be ruled by Twitter. Apparently I wasn't all that wrong!



If only i could bring myself to tweet something nice so my name would show up listed in the White Houses official website...

Disclaimer: I do not know if previous presidencies had a similar page! If they did, my comments also apply to them! 



Blah blah blah

Choosing titles for the posts isn't always the easiest of tasks. Specially when not sure of what they will be about. I guess I could just type it up and name it after. That would be smart... So for now the title of the post is "Blah blah blah". If something different shows up, then I will know I ended up with a better idea! 

But for now, let me resume my regular ramblings! 

It is Thursday and I am sitting at work for one hour and eleven minutes. I have very little (to none) work to do. I have negative wish to do any work at all. I believe I mentioned this before but I am really tired of my job! [this is my space and I'll bitch and complain as often as I want!]. There are no prospects of growth and/or learning at this point. The only position that could grant some learning is now being taken by mini boss. As my super said yesterday "i understand blood is blood... but it sounds kind of shitty!". He is right! I wanted to learn more. I wanted to have more responsibility. To grow as a professional. 
But i guess none of this will happen... 
And why am I still here I may ask (has to be me, no one else reads this): because despite not being a fortune, the paycheck I get doesn't hurt... I was out looking for a new job online yesterday. I saw many postings offering the same hourly rate, but why changed from here to a new place to get paid the same and have less benefits? By benefits I mean "being able to call in sick/hookie and not get fired". I could also just move back to my country, but then I won't be making any money (getting a job there just feels like an impossible mission) and it would be a bit tight for a while... Decisions, decisions... 




TBT - movies

What movies released in January 1997 do I remember watching? 

Not many... 

From the 11 page list of movies released, it came down to: 


Speed 2... Not a great sequel, but Jason Patric is really cute. 


Evita. Never really watched the full movie, mostly because I have an unnatural dislike for Madonna. 


I haven't really watched this one, but it will now go into my list of movies to watch. And all due to my untold love from Viggo Mortensen... 




Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Oy vey

The wall and some more measures that will hurt the environment... Every day is a sad political day since 1/20/2017...



                                           (http://peterwsage.blogspot.com/2016/04/choosing-ugly-photo-of-trump.html)

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Wounded pride

Neither the wish or the amount of work push me towards working. But i still try. I keep thinking of ways to improve our worksheets, our lists, back ups... 

And today I found out that someone that the bosses son, that started working here in the summer, took credit for an excel spreadsheet I made. In April. According to the boss, the one I made didn't work (funny enough, I just tested it and it works fine) and he had mini-boss re-do it. 

Awesome. Real cool. I need no recognition. Or raise. Or benefits. I am just happy to have a job where I have to do whatever they need me to do. I am not upset at all that their pay check is 5 times mine. Or that mini boss gets twice what i do. Or that they got end of year bonus that are about 3x my yearly salary. None of it bothers me. Of course not. Because I am not human. Because I see or know none of these things.... Too bad I do. I know all these values and what i feel are tremendous injustices. 

Sounds silly, it is silly for sure, but all this crap would be much more easy to endure if I got some recognition. A pat in the back for work well done. 

Since I don't.... Fuck it. Fuck them. I will just sit back through the 8 daily hours, navigate the WWW and pretend to work hard. I do that well enough. And if I don't, I am sure mini boss will do it for me! 

Monday, January 23, 2017

POTUS (ii)

The day where I follow politics is nearing. It is impossible not to these days. 

And it just dawned on me that the gentleman that occupies the position is a former reality TV presence. All he does must be focused on having people talking about him. Too bad he doesn't put in the effort to do good things and have the voices praising him instead of acting as expected and f$#@in' up...

Pictures of the crowd during inauguration day were online. There is a webcam that showed it while the ceremony was happening. During the parade, we could see that the streets were deserted in many areas. And yet I saw the statement saying there were bigger crowds than during Mr. Obama's inauguration. That this year they had protected the grass and that was why you could see the white. This is such a sad and pitiful excuse it is not even funny. 

And that ties up with the blatant disregard and disrespect for the Saturday parades. At the most, the outcome was him reinstating the Antiabortion policy for overseas groups. 

I could go on, the fact that work is slow and I insist in staying the full day allows me to read the news and follow these events, but I will stop now. It is a bit too depressing to carry on writing about... 

Friday, January 20, 2017

The new POTUS

I should start by saying I only learned today what POTUS means. Never had I ever heard or read that. Google told me it means "President of the United States". Fair enough, a title that big needs an acronym.

CNN's website has been open on my second screen all morning long, following the Inauguration day events. As of now, the USA has had a new president for 3h. And I strongly believe there is a fair amount of people out there thinking it is about time to get a new one... 

That must be the reason for all the protests. Namely the ones raving through DC. Big fan of peaceful protests. They are the perfect representation of a society that can express their opinions. But as soon as the first rock is thrown, or the first glass is broken, they loose all their validity. How will breaking the Starbucks storefront help make a point?

Saving the experience of listening to his speech later today, but couldn't help myself and read it online. 

These are the things that jumped at me while doing it: 

 "For too long, a small group in our nation's Capital has reaped the rewards of government while the people have borne the cost. Washington flourished -- but the people did not share in its wealth. Politicians prospered -- but the jobs left, and the factories closed."

This comes from a billionaire business man... Clearly he has reaped some rewards himself. 

"You came by the tens of millions to become part of a historic movement the likes of which the world has never seen before."


A lot of wishful thinking when he wrote this... 

"One by one, the factories shuttered and left our shores, with not even a thought about the millions upon millions of American workers left behind."

Wonder how many factories he employ out of the US. How many jobs he could be giving to the good american people... 

"The wealth of our middle class has been ripped from their homes and then redistributed across the entire world."

I like this line. It acknowledges who actually pays for everything: the middle class!

"We will follow two simple rules: Buy American and hire American."

This one kind of jeopardizes my position here... Legally in this country, but i'm still not American... 

"We will reinforce old alliances and form new ones -- and unite the civilized world against radical Islamic terrorism, which we will eradicate completely from the face of the Earth."

This statement feels a bit radical on its own... 

And these were my main thoughts on the speech. Not that someone cares, but I wanted to write it down anyway. All part of this wonderful country that allows for free speech! First Amendment rocks! 

And now I will keep watching the inaugural parade. Just waiting for them to pass some people watching, so far there is not much of a crowd showing...

Thursday, January 19, 2017

TBT - hit song

According to the website http://www.bobborst.com/, the hit song during this period in 1997 was... 

... 


drum roll...


This was the hit song from December 1st 1996 to February 15th 1997. 

I can still sing along to it, even after all these years. 

And why chose this year? Because 1997 was a year of changes for me. I had to grow up real quick and become a grown up. No time or chance to be a teenager. I was 14 then and had to act the part of a 30y old. This was 20y ago. I feel more like a teenager today than i got to then.

Anyway, found this was a fun thing to look up! 



Daily ramblings


 - Went to "my" job-site today to pick up some stuff. Found out they are tossing stuff we HAD to paint last week. Talk about trowing away time and money. It is not my money, but it is my time and it pisses me off! Is planning ahead such an endeavor that the client can't manage? If they hired a couple less VP's of whatever and hired a few more people to actually do some thinking they might save themselves some cash...

- I've been sitting at work twiddling my thumbs since 9:15 am... OK, maybe 9:30 if i account for the e-mails sent and phone calls received. Bottom line is: I could be home and the work accomplished would be roughly the same. I've checked FB, Instagram, Snapchat, and I even installed Twitter just in case. Now I am extra bored with social media...

- Waiting on a call with prices to do something I am not really sure about, in a place I don't know very well, using a material I am not sure what it is. It will certainly go well!

- There will be a new president running the USA tomorrow. It deeply concerns me that the american citizens made the choice they did. There is always hope that he will tone it down, wise up and actually do less bad than expected. Found out today I know a guy in MN that will actually go down to DC to be present when he takes over. Wouldn't mind going back to DC, but not for this reason.

- My co-worker told me today he is looking for a new job. Had a feeling that was why he was acting so weird for the past couple of days. He is more tired of doing this as I am apparently. And I pretty sure he needs to be making a lot more $$ than he currently is to pay his bills.

- Guess that is enough ramblings for now. Brain just got disconnected and can't think of more stuff to type. Off to do a take off 1 month ahead of time!

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Bowling and stuff II

Here I am, months after publishing the first post with this title, facing the same dilemma... Spent part of the morning re-doing the take off from some new prints for a different bowling alley. I only confirmed what i had written before. Pretty sure I have the correct scope written down. And now I have to call the subs that bid for it and confirm they included it all. And my wish to do it is zero. I could even submit to my laziness, if the boss hadn't told me to do it today. 

As an update, the other remodels are partially done. Not completed because we received some more changes last week. Work is good. Money is good. Keeping busy is good. At least this is the mantra I have to keep repeating to convince myself that I should be sitting at my desk instead of at home... 

I must confess I gave in to temptation yesterday and called in sick. My normal morning headache became a "migraine" and it was my justification to stay home. Not very proud of it. But the fact remains that i enjoyed being able to be at home relaxing. I feel I am ready to pack up and move back to Portugal. But yesterday when I told the hubbie I was a bit burned out with this, he only giggled. I know deep down he was making fun of me. After all, I've only been doing this for 4y, shouldn't be this tired of it.... But I am! Does that make me lazy? Or maybe I am just homesick? For sure in desperate need of something different. 

And now that i rambled a bit, it is time to get back to work and do something...


                                  (http://nedhardy.com/)



Monday, January 16, 2017

Too early to be drunk?

I should be typing the post title on Google and seeing the responses.

My grown nephew (actually its the hubbies nephew) sent a text to a family group, saying he was drunk "as per usual". Considering it is 3pm on a Monday it gets me a bit concerned. He works at a bar, so i understand being drunk at the end of the shift... or on a night outing... or at any social event. But being drunk at this time? Sounds awfully like a drinking problem by now... Sure he is a grown up, legal age to drink and all. But deep down he is an overgrown baby, with no real life plan or goals. Or he did and he dropped them when it proved to be too hard. 

Just afraid he is lost and trying to find his way at the bottom of the bottle... 

😩

Unexpected results II

Just as an update of the previous post: I need to have one or several of the pictures framed and hung around the house for a reminder of my resolution. Apart from my newly found aversion for M&M's (why oh why, and I loved them so much...) and Oreo's [ever since i had my January stomach episode I don't feel like eating them] my love for sugar and sweets goes strong and unsupervised. There must be something really wrong with my brain. What other explanation can there be for it not to follow through with resolutions that would be so beneficial for my health? I would say it is all fault of my lacking self control, but that comes from the brain too, so I believe I found a culprit of me being fat! 

Friday, January 13, 2017

Unexpected results

Today is a slow day at work. This only means one thing: plenty of secret visits to Facebook, news sites and random browsing for totally not-work related topics. 

While embarking in one  of those activities, I saw a mention of the work of a photographer that displayed love between people, despite their size, race or gender. I clicked the link and started looking at pictures. Beautifully taken, of people feeling comfortable in their skin, posing by their loved ones in intimate positions. I strongly believe the goal was to make people feel well and confidant that size has no influence on the choices of the heart. That you should feel good about yourself and just lead a healthy happy life. And it somehow only made me feel an intense urge to loose weight and exercise a bit. I guess that is not a bad thing, but it's still weird how my brain processed the images so differently from their original intent.

So now I get to sit here thinking of my new found goal, while time doesn't fly and 5 o'clock sits millions of hours from now.


Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Happy New Year [OMG - it is 2017 already!]

I am pretty sure 2016 lasted a couple less months than usual years! I won't believe the calendars that tell us it lasted 366 days because I am positive it only lasted like 60 or 70... But those days were all super long and all spent at work! 

And then 2017 started! ...

And in the first few days I spent a ton of $$ at the vet clinic, fell on my butt (slipped on ice), had stomach problems and a fever. Came back to work and found that nothing had changed or been done in the projects i was managing... 

2017 is in its 11th calendar day. Yet it feels we should be nearing March or April by now... 

Maybe it is the side of me that had to drive on snow for a couple of days and is now ready for Summer (when am I not ready for Summer?). 

Maybe it is the side of me that is ready to move back to Portugal and leave all of this behind... No one is stopping other than myself. Or the me that wants to save a little more. But is it worth it? Where is the magic 8 ball that actually tells me what to do and when to do it? A little guidance here would be appreciated... or if I am being honest (and why not, it is just me and me here), what i really want is to have the hubby say "let's move now" and just do it! Pack bags and the cat and move! Or not have to pack anything, just hit the teleport button and have the house, with all inside (us and cat included) all moved to Portugal. That would, indeed, be the sweetest thing! And since I am asking, why not ask for a good paying job waiting for me? 

Sadly these are all wishes, and we all know wishes aren't horses... 

Now back to work, because being writing here certainly isn't in my (very vast) job description... 




Monday, July 18, 2016

Broken

This is proving to be a lot rougher than I can handle... 



Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Missing home

The title says it all: I miss home! Not the one I have over here with my husband and the kitty, but the one across the ocean. The one where my family and friends are. Where I can drive for less than an hour and smell that wonderful ocean. The country of good food and affordable health care.
The country that won the UEFA Euro 2016 cup!

I should be going on an on about it. And part of me wants to, I am very happy about that win, for many many reasons. Also happy about all the other sport wins that happened during the weekend. But the soccer one had a little more impact on me. I have been waiting for it for my entire life. Watched countless games, cried over it, suffered and celebrated. But never lost the hope that would happen. And now it did!



But today all I can feel is this longing to be with my people. To hear my language being talked around me. To not be here. Guess I'm tired. And can't fight it much longer.
It pains me to take my husband away from the place where he has been living for the past... many years. To a place where he doesn't understand the language. But we agreed on that move, and he seems to be ok with doing it, so it will have to happen sooner rather than later!
A part of me wanted to stay a bit longer. Save some more money. Get a little retirement fund going on. The other part of me just can't stand it anymore.

Wonder if hours of sleep and rest would make this feel less hard. Make it more bearable. But for now I am not getting that rest, so I will just bitch and hope for the day when I return. When I get a nice new place and can take the kitty to meet the Portuguese family. People that love her already and would be totally fine with taking care of her while we away....

I should go on, get things out of my system. But i will finish, readjust my happy mask, and carry on.

Monday, May 02, 2016

Pink nails


Sitting at work I realize I worked myself senseless last week (s). That only caused me still be drained today! After wrapping a bid last week for a big and confusing project, i only have 2 new ones to work on. One bids tomorrow and the other next week. Pretty confident both outcomes will be sucky, but at this point I really don't care. I have been doing all I can to make things happen, but there is only so much that someone with my knowledge and motivation can get done!

So instead of calling people and leaving voice mails (it is lunch time), I decided to come over and write something! Of course as soon as I did, all the topic ideas flew away and left me with the usual blank canvas.  While staring at my hands paused on the keyboard, my pink nails stood out and the title came along!

Yesterday was grocery shopping day! While the hubby chose a shampoo (it is such a rare event that he didn't even know how to approach the aisle) I went to look at the available polish colors.
Since moving to the US Sally Hansen has been my chosen brand. But the fact that the regular polish chips within 2 days of application always bugged me, leading me to splurge on gel nails... Until now!
Sally Hansen released this miracle polish thingy that doesn't need the special light and lasts up to 14 days! I tried it and it lasts me 9 days before starting to chip.
So it is time to start a nice little collection of colors! Cream, Pink and Blue are the first ones. Bolder colors to follow! And the happy feeling of only spending $7.99 a jar instead of the $30 every other week for the gel application!

And now back to work, rocking my pink nails and my lack of wish to work....

Monday, April 25, 2016

4/25/1974 (US) & 25/4/1974 (Portugal)

Regardless of how I write the date, the feeling still stands that I should not be working today!

This is a day filled with historic meaning in Portugal.
Quoting Wikipedia:
“The Carnation Revolution, also referred to as the 25 April, was initially a military coup in LisbonPortugal, on 25 April 1974 which overthrew the regime of the Estado Novo. The revolution started as a military coup organized by the Armed Forces Movement composed of military officers who opposed the regime, but the movement was soon coupled with an unanticipated and popular campaign of civil resistance. This movement would lead to the fall of the Estado Novo and the withdrawal of Portugal from its African colonies and East Timor.
The name "Carnation Revolution" comes from the fact that almost no shots were fired and when the population took to the streets to celebrate the end of the dictatorship and war in the colonies, carnations were put into the muzzles of rifles and on the uniforms of the army men. In Portugal, the 25th of April is a national holiday, known as Freedom Day, to celebrate the event.”

[I could of wrote an explanation myself, but I just felt it would be easier to copy someone else’s work – COPY PASTE RULES!]

This was always a day of staying home with the family. Having my dad tell us how he had been woken early in the morning to go and guard the evacuation  of the prison in Peniche. My mother telling how she was running back and forth, almost 8 months pregnant with my brother, to report the news she was listening on the radio. Each member of the family that had some sort of memory of that day would share it. And despite us having heard the same reports year after year, we still asked for them and brought the topic up. And today, while sitting grudgingly at work, I miss that. I am missing out on that experience once again.


Instead I am sitting at work, trying to find electricians in KS. Every little girl’s dream… 

Friday, April 22, 2016

:(


Today Minnesota is in mourning. People and companies are coming together and painting this state with purple. Radio stations have been playing Prince’s songs non-stop since we first heard the news yesterday morning.
It was a  loss to the music scene around the world, but to MN particularly. RIP Prince. 

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Random thoughts

- Today is Wednesday and every fiber in my body begs for it to be Friday;

- My boss payed me a compliment earlier today. He just came out and said that I was doing a god job (he was listened to my phone conversation). It was so unexpected and unusual that my brain didn’t even register the event when it happened. 

- The “torture sessions” [loving nickname I gave to the mini workouts I have been doing] at home continue for me. I don’t believe for a sec that the hubby is still doing them, since I have never seen it happen (not even during the weekend, when I wake up first and go to sleep at the same time). The sore feeling is gone, but it is still very hard to complete the exercises. And I definitely complain and bitch a lot while doing them. 

I guess that is it… I know I wanted to write some more things, but the lack of proper rest is taking its toll on me! 

Monday, April 18, 2016

Just plain rude

There are people out there owning business that should just leave the paperwork and public relations to someone else. That would save them the hassle of doing the work and would also save us, the people who call them and need them to do the work, to get bombed with their BS or  with their aptitude for offensive swearing. I swear as much as the next person (fine, maybe just a bit less), but dropping the  F word several times in a phone call with your employer (with the person that literally writes your payment check) just seems like a stupid move.

That being said, a plumber 915 miles away (1472 Kms) managed to leave everyone at the office feeling uneasy. What is really surprising is that it could all be avoided (the headache, him losing his contract, us having to find someone else to do the work) if he had been honest and upfront about things. Instead he tried to lie and make up excuses for everything that went wrong, even if his fault was as clear as a nice summer day.


That being said, let me make some calls to try and find some more people that down the road may or may not prove to be assholes … 

Friday, April 15, 2016

Day 3

When the alarm went off this morning, my first thought was "pretty sure both the cat and hubby are sleeping on top of me". Only logical explanation as to why I felt so "squeezed". Then as I reached to silence the relentless alarm it dawned on me... After getting home yesterday I was subject to another session of torture. Hubby claimed he had done his already, but I will believe it when I see it! The weekend will clarify my doubts!  I then proceeded to evaluate if I really needed to wash my air. Wouldn't it be OK if it was a little gross if that meant I didn't need to raise my arms higher than my waist? It turned out it wasn’t ok, so just do it! After the shower and getting dressed, the pain started subsiding a bit and became more of a nuisance that intense pain. Or so I keep telling myself!How on earth do those people that go on losing weight shows manage to start exercising for a full day, every day?! I can barely move after a few minutes and they push on and on! Going to use that to fuel my day and keep positive! If they can do it, so can I! Just need to suck it up an act like a grown up. Muscles are sore, but it is worth it! Not even thinking of the eventual/possible weight loss, but of the added strength and flexibility. The muscles that are sore are returning to an active life, and that can only be good. And apparently there are muscles hidden behind my boobs and on my sides! Came I as  shocker!That being said, time to start working and go through the day.Happy Friday! 

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Update

In the interest of full disclosure, I must publicly say that my arms are currently trembling at the effort of typing and grabbing sheets of paper of the printer. 

Considering the weather is warmer I can't really pin it on being cold... 

This is turning out to be a very long day at work! 

TV shows and mid-life crisis

My hubbies birthday was yesterday. He doesn’t really celebrate or care for his birthdays at all (as mentioned before). Ended up getting him a cake and that was it!

After dinner, while we were watching TV he says something about “having done his calisthenics in the morning”. “you did what now?” Apparently he decided he needs to get fitter and started doing push-ups and curls and stretches and that kind of stuff. “Good for you baby, you should of waited for me so I could spot your sit-ups”. Notice I did  not mention in any way me doing those kind of torture exercises!
It seems like a good timing to mention that my flexibility is in the lines of Sheldon's: 


I left the conversation drop, avoiding the soreness of the topic. And then TV blasts with the premiere of a new TV show called “Strong”. Thanks a bunch Sylvester Stallone and NBC! Hubbie does not watch reality tv! Or at least he claims not to. But he didn’t change the channel and started watching. At this point I starting fearing repercussions of such an exposure to exercise, effort and will.
And then the inevitable happened… He got me doing sit-ups and push-ups and stretches… And the promise that we would start doing them every day! NOOOOOO! Maybe it is a passing fancy and he forgets all about it by this afternoon… Or he won’t and I have to prepare for some more exercising non-existent muscles. Not sore today, which was a nice surprise in the morning! Not going to tell him tough, or the number of sequences and repeats will raise exponentially!


Wish me luck… 

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Did you really think this through?

This just happened and I am giggling about it, so I decided to write it down to remember in the future! Not sure if it will make sense if anyone else other than myself reads it, so my apologies for that!

Context:
Small company here, keep that in mind.
President’s name (eg): Mrs. Blah blah
Project Manager name: MR. Blah blah
And “Blah blah” is an uncommon name, the kind you have to spell out each time you give it away.

Project manager sends out perfectly polite e-mail to subcontractor telling him to comply to schedule and having supplies available. Subcontractor calls immediately asking to talk to the President in order for her to remove the Project Manager from the project since he is being pushy and rude.
Yeah dude, that is going to happen! She may even say that to him while in bed. Something like “hey honey, forgot to mention you are off the project you are running because some little girl disguised as a grown man is upset at you”. This guy works in construction. If he gets all flushed and upset with the e-mail Mr. Blah blah sent him, he is royally screwed working in this field. I’m a girl, pretty easily offended with nonsense stuff and I can’t find the fault in that e-mail! Part of me wants to call him and ask WTF?


This is going to be a weird Wednesday… 

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Bowling and stuff

The title has almost no correlation with the post. But no other ideas came to mind while the floor plan of a bowling alley is staring right at me!

That being said, I should be actively preparing a scope of work based in those drawings. I’ve done 2 locations, only one to go. But this is the most confusing one, the least documented (oh the lack of pictures, why didn’t I take them instead of leaving that task to others…) and the one I feel will bring less return. I still have to do it today. But it can wait a couple more minutes!

Tomorrow is my hubbies birthday. It is a big one too. And he refuses to celebrate or even get any gifts. And that annoys me to no end for some odd reason! I wanted him to be more excited about his b-day. But then I realize it is HIS birthday and it is none of my business how he chooses to (not) celebrate it. Still it annoys me, but the little rational me tells me I should keep my feelings to myself about this and let him have his day the way he wants it! So grown-up, right? We’ll see how I fare tomorrow…


I feel like procrastinating my bowling alleys work a bit more, but duty calls and I want to leave work in a couple of hours so… be back soon! 

Tuesday, April 05, 2016

The benefits of thinking before speaking


From what I can gather, Spring was in Minnesota, but Summer invited her to go on vacation and she left. I believe Autumn and Winter are filling her for her. Only that can explain the grey skies, the rain and the cold that insists on sticking around. All the lights at the office are turned on, and still the gloominess from outside seems to fill both me and my co-worker with this intense wish of going home and curl up on the couch (each of us to their own home, with their own couch).

So when my boss came out and asked if I wanted to go with him tomorrow I instantly said “yes”. Anywhere would be less gloomy and more appealing than sitting at the office all day. Then it occurred to me to ask “where?”. Site meeting with a potential client, I have to meet him at 8 am. Not only will I be at a similarly gloomy location, with my boss and other people than know loads more about construction than myself, but I will also be there sleep deprived and grumpy. I should just go home right about now and take a 16h nap…

Next time I will know to think a bit before saying something. Maybe suddenly remember an appointment I never made or a headache that is yet to come!


Come back Spring, please bring Summer with you! I am in desperate need of some vitamin D! 

Monday, April 04, 2016

Tax season



'Tis the season to be jolly... 

Or not! I put on my [imaginary] CPA hat yesterday and tackled the joyful task of preparing the forms. 1040 and state. I don't really mind doing that. I do, however, mind greatly when i see the values we are supposed to pay. Forget about refund, we always pay. You would think we pay nothing throughout the year, right? But every month, dutifully, a large sum of mine (and his) paycheck goes off to the government. And when tax season comes, we are always invited to write a check and send over. How dare we have no mortgage on the house?   

I know this is me just bitching, but it just pains me to be so taxed. It feels like every time I turn around I have to pay something to the government. You want to file your taxes? Pay up! You want to work? Pay up! You want to get this form that we should provide you? Pay up! You want to step outside? Pay up! 

What exactly is this money being used for? And why can't I get ANY benefits out of it? It would be nice if someone could explain the phenomena to me.... 


Friday, April 01, 2016

Friday morning meeting - 1

I should be working now. Really working hard. Should of… Could of.. Would of… Instead I am typing this text using an outlook box to disguise my lack of work and playing Trivia Crack on the phone. Failing miserably at it. I used to be smart, not really sure what happened.

Since today is Friday, we got to have our Friday morning meeting, which is just code for eating and donuts and talking. As usual Miss dumb-ass here decided to ask a work question as a conversation started. In my defense, I was trying to steer the conversation away from the chatter that usually happens and that I didn’t feel like enduring. So I shouldn’t be complaining about having the boss say that we have to be more “ass-hole like” sometimes. After I replied that would be a problem to me, he said he didn’t care and that I only had to deal with it. Awesome, really what I wanted. I strongly dislike confrontation, arguments or any form of heated conversation. I like to do things the diplomatic way. Of course that does not always work when dealing with contractors. I have found many good people out there, but I have also had the displeasure of running into some royal dicks. And not the good kind of dick…

So I will just go on with my playing and the pretending to work. Today won’t be the day I am a bitch! Let us save that for some other day when I am naturally inclined to that.


Happy Weekend!

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

(Online) diary of a fat girl - 3

It has been two weeks since I started taking better care of my diet. That means I am not skipping meals, I'm trying to drink more water and... eating less sugar/sweets. In addition to that, my hubbies cooking (he cooks the meals during the week) are filled with veggies and healthy stuff. 

That being said, I can actually see differences! These are the most relevant: 


  • What they say about drinking more water and having better skin? Lies, all lies! My skin has the texture of a parchment these days. There is not enough moisturizer in the Clinique department at Macy's!
  • I can actually keep a sleeping schedule! It goes something like this:
    [7:30 am - 9:30 pm] "I am sooooo sleepy! I need a nap, please let me take a nap!"
    [9:31 pm - 10 pm] "Ok, time to get ready for bed." "Oh, it feels nice and confy"
    [10:05 pm - 12:30 am] "Time to sleep! Close your eyes and sleep now"
    [12:35am - 7:29 am] = 5 minutes (time of day when 7 h = 5 min)
  • My BM's are on a good and regular schedule - Actual benefit!
  • I think about eating chocolate 18/7 and I am grumpy and bitchy most the time... 
The joys of a wannabe diet... 

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Bored?

It dawned on me yesterday! While I was driving home, trying to figure out was it has been so hard for me to be at work and actually focus: I am bored with what I do! I should of figured it out earlier, it makes perfect sense. I like to learn new things at work. To do stuff that challenge me. And I do like to feel I am improving at what I do. And at my current job, there is only so much I can improve on my own. It wouldn’t hurt if I got compliments on my work a little more often, or if I felt I was being recognized. But apparently the gig is to assume all will be done correctly and only say something if something comes out wrong. And blame me, even if it is not my fault or responsibility. Routine kills me. Repetition drowns my spirit.
On my free time I like to play games. I even get bored with those, within a couple of weeks. Shouldn’t surprise me I got bored and tired of the (same) work after a couple of years. But games I can give up on, stop playing or put on pause. And apparently if you do that with work… you don’t get paid! And I have this fondness for the paycheck at the end of the month….


Btw, yesterday I was calculating our taxes for this year… I better get back to work and make the money I need to write the IRS a big fat check… Refund season for me always means me giving more money to the IRS… I am pretty sure I am not pleased with this arrangement! 

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Thursday blues

It has been days since I was myself. There is someone else living in my skin. I can see it being there, doing things in my place. I can feel it's hunger and sleep. But all the things that make me me are hidden and dormant. I wake up in the morning, wait for the alarm clock to ring and then fight the urge to just curl under the covers and pretend the world doesn't exist. 
My days are a constant fight between my sour mood and the need to be nice and pleasant. The me that isn't me plays the part of the real me fooling the people around (not like someone is paying close attention) and killing off the real me a bit each day. 
It is a matter of time until the me that i recognize disappears. 
'Till then... It was nice knowing the real me! 

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Spring





Spring arrived last Monday! Cardinals and Great Tits (THE BIRD) have been chirping around for days. And today they get snowed on! Not fair for the poor fellas! Them or me... Ready for Spring, for green grass, for trees blooming and flowers showing their pretty colors. 
But instead we get a mild snow storm. I guess it could be worst: it could of been a major snow storm instead. But it is still enough to make me want to cuddle with a blanket and a good book at home.

Oh warm weather, how I miss you... 

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Sad day for the world


Explosions in Brussels.

The so-called Islamic State Group said it was behind the attacks. 

It is just plain sad that there are still people willing to kill others (and themselves) in the name of...? ... a cause? ... a calling? Why? What is so important that justifies the death of innocent people. Parents, children, loved ones. People that were just living their lives. Maybe leaving for vacation. Maybe saying a goodbye to their loved ones, not thinking it would be their final one. Someone taking the subway to get to work, to school... 

Today is a sad day for the world. Belgium cries for their losses and the world should cry with them. In solidarity. In shame. 


Monday, March 21, 2016

(Online) diary of a fat girl 2

I found out last weekend that there is a book with the same name as this string of posts!


Talk about not being original... :( My apologies to Ms. Moira Mugweni). Just in case, I will change the title a wee bit. 

I did read the book over the weekend. And I liked it! Teenager kind of book, but apparently i didn't outgrow my 18y fat self (despite being almost twice as old as that...). And the girl actually lost some weight. And found her self confidence! I wish I could find mine too... 

Went to the doctor last week for some issues I have been having. I am pretty sure the diagnosis was done way before the doctor started talking to me. As soon as I saw her walk in the office, all skin and bones, I figured the weight would be an issue. She didn't tell me right away. First she called some blood work and ultra-sound. Then she called me a few days later and told me I was overweight. NO SHIT Sherlock! She also told me that could explain the issues I have been having. Sure it does. Not sure if it explains the "disappearing" (the ultrasound didn't show anything out of place) of the growths in my liver that were diagnosed years ago.  Of course all the stomach issues are weight related... 

I am not naive enough to think that being overweight is the healthiest choice for me, but I am pretty sure that my complaints are not weight related. 

Now to wait a while for the next episode and then take myself to the ER.  


Monday bitching

It is Monday. That alone makes me grumpier than usual (Garfield has nothing on me). 
The weekend was way to small to accommodate all my need to do nothing and relax. Plus I had to squeeze in visits to the hubby's family (twice!). That being said, my mood today when the alarm clock went off wasn't the best. 
But i did manage to get up, get ready, come to work  AND arrive on time! 
After a few hours in, my boss asks me how I could miss something in a project we've been working on. I did in fact miss it. But so did he. The person who knows these things inside out and that qualified bids and writes contracts. Why exactly I am the one to blame just baffles me... And when he figured he should be blaming himself, did he apologize? Hell no! God forbid these people know the power of an apology... 

It didn't help my mood. And now I am debating if I should go earlier or if I should stay a few more hours just to get paid for them. Not a very nice thing to do, I know... but I do things much faster than my co-worker and get no credit or extra for it.

And if I went home earlier I am pretty sure it would only be to sit on the couch and watch the hubby playing with his phone. Boring, boring, boring! 

And that is it! Ranting done! 

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Working on a Thursday...

In a nut shell, this was my day today:
9:00 - 14:30
Calling a few subs, updating the list, making sure all was on track, having lunch, counting seconds, doing nothing...
14:31 - 15:30
Planning work, doing some more calls. Stating "I am sooooo going to leave at 16h today!"
15:31 Boss walks in and gives me a number of things to get done
17:10 "Shit...."

Monday, February 15, 2016

Bid day

Today is pre-bid day. That means we should have all the bids for all the trades nicely lined up to present to our Project Manager tomorrow. As always, we don't! Not for lack of trying i might add. I don't understand those contractors that say they are going to bid, sounds as if we don't need to call anyone else and then leave us out to dry... I wonder if it is that hard to pick up the phone and say "not bidding". Doesn't really take that long and could make a world of difference to us! Of to do dummie calls and trying to find who is already bidding in the great state of OH...

Monday, January 25, 2016

Diary of a fat girl 1

As I sit on the couch, cat laying at my feet, the tv presents me The Biggest Loser. I could easily be watching Netflix, but there is something that compeles me to watch the strenght of the competitors. The way they commit to a diet and to weight loss...
I should be able to do that. Both for appearance as health. I wonder how cool it would be to look in the mirror and not flinch at the relection. To go to the doctor and not get a dirty judgemental look... To be able to fit on a size 8... To make my hubbie proud of me and proud to be seen with me by his side. Not that he ever made me feel inadequate, but i feel it enough for the both of us. 
Guess i'll stop writing now and go back to my book world, where no one really cares how I look, not even myself...

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

The joy of being amused with small things

I am not a hard to amuse person. I try to see the silver lining in everything. Maybe it's the Portuguese in me (everything can ALWAYS be worst in the eyes of a real Portuguese), maybe it is just self preservation.

Regardless, today's conversation between my coworker and the Project Manager was really funny...
PM: "geez, those guys should know better, they are supposed to be  looking into these details"
Coworker: (joking) "you have to get 2 superintendents, 1 to look over those things and another one to babysit him"
PM: (serious) "Yup, that is where you guys come in, I want you to start doing that".
Coworker:

And that was it! Still makes me giggle each time i think of the face he made! 

Monday, September 21, 2015

And it is Monday once again...

I don't want to be cliche, but Mondays really are hard... Waking up early to get ready for work... And then actually being at work after two days of being confy at home.... But on the plus side, a week from today I will be enjoying one week of vacation! :) Happy Happy!! And to top it all, I'll be sending that week with my dearest friend that is coming to visit! So excited for that! She is the second person that will come to visit me in MN, and I know how much she deslikes/fears traveling, so I value what she is doing even more!!
Can't wait!!!
Happy week!

Friday, September 18, 2015

Friday

The day of the week when i get out of bed thinking I'm only 16h away from being able to get a full nights rest!
It is also office meeting day, and that only means coffee and donuts! As said before, this isn't a bad job to have :)
Of course that doesn't apply to days like yesterday... I am a really patient person, but yesterday a guy managed to infuriate me in a manner that i decided to end the call instead of start the name calling or high pitched argument. That is where the conversation was headed. The guy did tile work in one of our construction sites. The job wasn't completed by him to meet the expectations (client, ours, plans...) and he still resists doing the repairs. The client complains that a brand new structure has tile falling off the wall, sends me pics to prove it, and the guy has the nerve to tell me that it is not is fault they banged the tile with the mop! Say what now? They can't mop the floor or the base tile will fall off? Not an expert in flooring, but I'm pretty confident it should endure that, at least for a couple of months, not fall off after the first week! If by any chance someone reads this and finds the error of my ways, let me know...

But today is Friday, a lovely day of the week. The coffee is brewing. Only 7 more hours for the weekend to start.

Happy Friday everyone!

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Day 2 of posting: the explanation

Not that someone other than me will read these lines, but i decided to go ahead and explain the purpose and history of this space.

Started a few years ago, more than i care to remember, when I felt the need to have a space where to randomly talk about "stuff" (for lack of a better word). Time, life and circumstances made me stop writing here on a regular basis. Yesterday was the day i resumed the activity. Not sure if it will be a permanent or constant thing, but i will give it a go!

And about myself... Portuguese girl that moved to the US in the pursuit of love. I am sorry if it sounds lame, but it is exactly what happened! The lid for my pot (translation of a Portuguese saying, and I am sticking by it!) lived in MN and that is where I needed to be to be with him. That meant leaving all my other loved ones in Portugal. It wasn't (still isn't) an easy task. The longing for my country, family, friends,..., taunts me everyday, but I know that is temporary and that i will move back someday.

But MN has been good to me and I love it also. Can't say the winter snows trill me or that i look forward to them, but it's part of the charm of this state. And it is undeniable that it is a beautiful place to live in. I also got a nice job that challenges me and teaches me new things. I might bitch about it sometimes (I'm a girl, bitching about stuff if part of the package), but I really enjoy it.

On a final note, if someone else reads this: welcome to my diary! I invite you to be part of my world, to share my happy and sad days (when they are translated into words). Talk to you soon!

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Very very bored at work...

Yes, I am in fact writing in English.. While at work... The two events correlate since the keyboard at work doesn't accept my beloved Portuguese special characters. Also, to be fair to the title: if I am at work, the least I could do was to type in the correct language!

Today is one of those days when I could easily be home doing nothing, but instead am sitting at work pretending to work. Bid due date today, we have everything set and ready to go, but need the PM to add 1+1 and give his stamp of approval.... That should happen in the next half hour or so. I wonder if it would help if he was in?

And as of now, I will have to pretend to be busy while doing nothing since both bosses arrived. This is very hard to accomplish since there is only so much i can pretend to do! I guess I could take the dog for a walk, but he is closer to my coworker... and now he took the dog for a walk! Little 4 paws traitor...

Fine, I will go stare at mechanical plans and pretend I know what the issues are...

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Home sick

Serve este post exclusivamente para tirar uma coisa do sistema....

Recebi uma encomenda dos meus pais hoje, continha bacalhau e umas tacinhas pequeninas, supostamente para quando eu fizer arroz doce ou coisas do género.Não sei porquê, desde que abri a encomenda que tenho crises de choro! E é isto...


Sunday, November 18, 2012

1º aniversário

E eis que na próxima 3ªfeira estarei a comemorar 1 ano de "ajuntamento". Pode não parecer muito, mas considerando tudo o que implica acho que merece comemoração. 
No entanto, o dia coincide com o término de um upgrade no jogo do meu esposo. Isso em termos práticos quer dizer que a única coisa em que ele vai pensar são upgrades e construções... Cheira-me que vai ser algo ao estilo do minuto 1 do vídeo abaixo...


E já que estava na onda do Big Bang, a prenda que encomendei para ele é um polar que diz "Bazinga"... A ver se os USPS a entregam a tempo... guilt trip might work... muahaha

Friday, November 16, 2012

Preguiça...

E é isto... sentada no sofá com o portátil no colo e a mantinha azul em cima dos pés. Está a chegar o tempo de hibernar e não consigo combater a mãe natureza!

Monday, November 12, 2012

Coisas de pessoa desocupada


Clash of Clans no iphone... Gosto? Nem por isso. Jogo? Claro que sim! O B também joga e assim vou seguindo o que ele está a fazer (enquanto no trabalho) no chat do clan.... 

E é isto...

Thursday, November 01, 2012

Dia de Todos os Santos

Segundo a definição que encontrei online:

"A Enciclopédia Católica define o Dia de Todos os Santos como uma festa em “honra a todos os santos, conhecidos e desconhecidos”. No fim do segundo século, professos cristãos começaram a honrar os que haviam sido martirizados por causa da sua fé e, achando que eles já estavam com Cristo no céu, oravam a eles para que intercedessem a seu favor." (from here)

Para mim era o dia em que ia com a minha madrinha e a minha mãe ao cemitério, pôr flores novas nas campas daqueles que amamos e já não estão connosco. Claro que isso só durou até a minha mãe perceber que eu chegava sempre do cemitério com dores de cabeça brutais (não sei se é do cheiro dos crisântemos ou qualquer outra razão mais oculta) e descartar não muito discretamente a minha ajuda. 

Calhava-me então a tarefa de abrir a porta aos meninos do "pão por Deus", que lá na terrinha começavam a bater às portas mais ou menos ao mesmo tempo que as galinhas acordavam... 

E este post porquê? Porque me apeteceu? E porque um bocadinho de mim tem pena de não ir ao cemitério, conversar com a última morada da minha avó e limpar a campa do lado, que estava sempre tristemente abandonada.