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For the past month I kind of glued my soul here, and told almost everything that was going on in my mind and heart.

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Big mistake!!

I kind of crossed the wire without a net and now I’m squashed in the floor in agony….

So please forget about everything I wrote and pretend it never happened, ok? I’ll try to do the same…

As we say in Ikariam… Thread closed…

Because everyone wears masks. Even when it's not Carnival time.
Enjoy the season people!

Mixed words

Because today I don’t feel like writing in English, but I still do it. For some reason words seem easier to be said, and the odds from someone from work reading them and understanding what I’m saying drops to a value very near zero…

I’m so full of feelings that I simply can’t talk about them! At least the good ones, those that are unknown to me and that I’m trying to figure out eventually.

One day I’ll make it, alone or with help.

But I also have some bad ones around… Re. work mainly… I think I might have the worst boss ever! I’m quite sure of it to be honest! He’s the one that after only 10 minutes around can make me have no will of working or making any effort to do something. 5 e-mail’s on a row? Each worst than the previous? Give us a break! Some people should just stay in bed all day long…

I’m not in the mood… I’ll go and google something… or just play a bit…

One day I'll learn how to sleep properly... going to sleep early and waking up early, alive and ready to go...
For now I'll do this "staying up late - being a zombie the next day" thing...

Uncertain

Because I have no news in 2 days. And I won’t for another 3 for sure. And I have this very bad feeling… Maybe it’s because I miss him…. Or intuition?

My new theme song

This is the song for me! I can feel every note and every beat of it!





Lyrics (to sing along):


This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Today I actually worked hard!

And this sentence alone could make a post… I felt this urge to solve those annoying problems that keep popping and I keep delaying over and over again. And so I did. Apart from some lost (and now found) papers, everything was sorted out. And tomorrow, if nothing new or too boring shows up, I’ll have a very long day… No point in logging in my Msn account dozens of times during the day… the mail I wanted to see there will only arrive next week… Some people actually go abroad on work trips… should do something like that!!! In the meanwhile, I’m stuck answering boring phone calls… and hearing the rain fall without a blanket and a good book with me…

I don't have a clue on what to write here...

When I said i didn't know what to put here someone told me to put this... And so I did...

I usually write in word 1st, but today I don't feel like doing that, so sorry in advance...

I can only think in one thing!!! Only one!!! I miss him.. A lot...